The Sleepy Hollow Fire

Here in Wenatchee, Washington it has been an eventful couple of days.  A fire started yesterday in the afternoon and quickly moved along the hillside towards town, destroying around 24 homes and catching in several buildings downtown.  Earlier today there was a threat of an ammonia leak and warnings to stay inside.  As I write this, I don’t know the extent of the damage.  It seems the fires are no longer spreading, but they are still burning and there is concern that the wind could whip them into a frenzy if it picks up.

I need to process this fire.  It has shaken me up.

My house hasn’t burned down and I am safe.  I’m thankful for this!  But you should know that until November 2013 I spent the entirety of my life along the east coast.  They don’t have wildfires.  There were severe snows and hurricane threats periodically, but they rarely directly touched my life.  Living out west in an area susceptible to fires is a different experience entirely.  One of the things I’ve loved about being out west is the sheer wildness of it, the imposing peaks, the winding highways through passes, the reminders that I’m small.  But there’s another side to that coin that I don’t like as much and it is called fire.  I’ve had to ask myself over the past few days- “Can I stand to live in a place where there’s a very real possibility each fire season that I could lose everything?”

Uncertainty and Fear

 As my wife and I realized the fire wasn’t abating and was getting closer, we went for a brief drive up into the hills across the river to get an idea of what was actually going on.  Seeing the lines of fire along the ridges was shocking.  It was a primal scene.  Even worse was seeing flames erupt from buildings several miles from our house.  I felt very small and extremely helpless.  I was witnessing a force of nature.  It was no longer “out there” as in some disaster you see in the news or hear about secondhand.  I was watching it spread in my town and wondering how it was ever going to stop.

After we got home we turned on the news and discovered that evacuations were happening directly to the north and west of us.  You know that question, “If your house was on fire what would you grab?”  I always thought of that as a nice thought exercise, again one I wouldn’t have to actually consider.  But as I looked out our back window and could see nothing but flames on the hillside, we readied ourselves for a quick escape.  As we packed, I was struck by how little I felt the need to bring.  I was mainly concerned with my journals, letters from family and friends, pictures, and a few books that have meant a lot to me.

We were not evacuated, so we went to bed reluctantly at 3:30 AM, continuing to nervously glance out the window and check for evacuation notices.  We prayed a simple prayer before several fitful hours of sleep, and I was struck by something my wife Tiffany said to God.  She thanked Him that no matter what happened to us or our belongings, we had Him.

Returning

 And that’s what it always comes back to doesn’t it?  I was given another opportunity to realize my insignificance both personally and in my material possessions.  I was scared.  I couldn’t imagine the suffering of those that had actually lost their homes.  But I needed to be redirected, to see beyond the flames to the God of the universe, and to know that my life, now and forever is in His hands. 

This is not a new insight.  We know how suffering, loss, and moments of fear can give us a fresh dose of perspective.  I have a renewed desire not to take anything for granted.  People woke on Sunday morning like it was a perfectly normal day and by that evening they were fleeing their homes.  I was also reminded not to hold onto anything too tight.  You don’t get to take it with you, at some point in this life it may be taken from you, and most of it doesn’t matter anyway.  But last night these things I’ve thought about primarily as intellectual, head knowledge, shifted to emotional experience for me.  I pray I don’t forget the truth of it.  We’re such interesting and stubborn creatures.  Well, I won’t speak for you.  I’m mostly amazed at myself that it takes something like a town catching on fire to make me stop and actually take in deeper truths.  And by tomorrow I fear I will have forgotten it and started worrying about petty things, focused again on my comfort.  Let it not be so!

“Whom have in heaven but you?  And earth has nothing I desire besides you.  My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”  Psalm 73:25-26

Spiritual Resources

I was reading through an account in the Old Testament the other day, it was the section in 1 Kings that described Solomon building the temple.  It contained lengthy descriptions of the materials involved, the exact measurements, and the layout.  It was boring.  I started to skim it the way you do when you feel guilty about just turning the page but also don't want to actually invest too much time.

But then I got to the next chapter where Solomon prays at the dedication of the temple.  This is what he says, "But will God really dwell on earth?  The heavens, even the highest heaven cannot contain you...Hear the supplication of your servant and of your people Israel when they pray toward this place.  Hear from heaven, your dwelling place, and when you hear forgive...and when a prayer or plea is made by anyone among your people Israel-being aware of the afflictions of their own hearts, and spreading out their hands toward this temple- then hear from heaven, your dwelling place" (1 Kings 8:27, 30,38-39).

As I read this I realized a couple of things.  First, the lengthy descriptions emphasize what a huge deal this is that God chose to make a physical dwelling among the people.  The glory of the temple in it's size and splendor is a pale reflection of the glory that God actually possesses.  Second, it was a massively big deal for the people to have a set place in which they knew they could reach out to God in order to find help and forgiveness.  This was the part that had Solomon excited and somewhat disbelieving- there was now a physical location where people could connect with God.

Present Day Temple

We know from the New Testament, that after the death and resurrection of Jesus, we were given the gift of the Holy Spirit.  1 Corinthians 6:19 says, "Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God?"  Our level of amazement should be exponentially greater than Solomon's at the building of the temple.  This is an incredible truth.  Now in order to connect with God, we don't have to visit the physical temple.  We have the Holy Spirit living within us.

For me this is one of those truths that is very easy to gloss over.  I'm aware of it, grateful on some level for it, and know it probably has an effect on a daily basis.  But my thoughts typically remain vague on the subject.

Internal Family Systems

There's a counseling theory/approach that can help us understand the practical implications and resources that are at our disposal.  I would recommend studying and reading up on this approach because I won't be able to do it justice here.  It was created by a therapist named Richard Schwartz and basically teaches that each of us have many different parts within us in the same way that a family has different members.  These parts all play roles and serve purposes, and they also can get into conflict with each other.  In the same way that a healthy family will have good leadership from parents, we will be healthy individuals to the degree that we exercise healthy leadership of our internal parts.

For the Christian, the leader of our internal parts is the Holy Spirit, who lives within.  Mary Steege, author of The Spirit-Led Life says this, "The Internal Family Systems model reminds us that we have a great spiritual resource:that heavenly treasure stored in our jars of clay.  Our Self (the Spirit) joins with our parts, meets them just as they are, right where they are; and where they are is in our flesh...Spirit in the flesh: it's a special kind of connection...and because of this, there is the potential for inner peace, no matter what's happening in the world around me" (48,50).

In the same way that the Israelites used to journey to the temple, we can stop, become aware of the need within us, and bring it to the Holy Spirit.  Are you struggling with anger, anxiety, an addiction, a drive to perform that won't let you relax?  This is not the entirety of you, it is a part of you that the Spirit would like to touch, heal, and lead.  The implications of this are best worked out in a counseling setting, but you can begin immediately to take full advantage of the resources available to you.  Praying for a greater awareness of the Spirit's role and purpose in your life would be a good place to start.  Stopping when you notice strong emotions or behaviors and inviting God to be involved in them is a good place to start.  Share in Solomon's amazement that our glorious God makes His dwelling with men.